How ah hao?

Home sweet home.
Life in camp turned to hell,
trainings are getting tougher than before.
Book out drink drank drunk,
$$$ spend spend spend,
book in chiong chiong chiong.

I needa girlfriend, HAHAH!
Guess i'm letting it go already,
and i made it this time round.
I've grown up man! LOL.

Its just a crushcrushcrush . .
I freaking needa control myself,
everything's gonna be just fine.

PS : i dreamt about you last night.

P.O.P

121209 marks the end of my basic military training phase.
Advance infantry training's up next, goodness sake.
Anw, had a memorable passing out parade last sat.
Hmm . . felt kinda random maybe cos i've got mixed feelings.
I miss the used-to-be section 4 like out of a sudden.
Alright, nothing much more to add on i guess, kinda tired.
Shall update again when i have the bloody free time.

Book out book out day~

The smile

I still remember those days back then.
Chun How used to have no worries and fun.
Days and eventually years passed so quickly,
everything in life seems like an obstacle now.

I realized i've changed so much these few years,
sometimes i don't wish to continue the journey in life.
I just wanna lead a care-free and simple life,
but problem comes after another breaking me down.
Holding on alone and always putting on a *fake* smile.
Trying my best to be strong in front of anyone else.

Maybe i just feel so lonely at times.
Where's my Mrs right?
Who's gonna bring back the smile on my face?

If god is fair

Time flies and life's changing.
enlistment date is just ard the corner,
gonna become a government slave soon.
fate isn't always on my side,
and love is getting harder than before.
i've forgotten how to fall in love . . .

I'm different from you guys,
not the typical jassen you see anymore.
I've forgotten how to smile . . .

Friends are my only accompanion,
whenever i needa crying shoulder
but i've forgotten how to trust . . .

Hidden thoughts and feelings are sealed.
Am i able to handle all these stuffs?
I've got no idea how am i suppose to move on.
I've forgotten how to live . . .

I just have one simple wish.
If god is fair, i hope.
I really hope all my loved ones and friends
will be showered with all your love and blessings.
Take my life away for all these,
in exchange for beautiful smiles and laughters.

I missed my mom out of a sudden.
She will always be my only love,
forever will be . . .

Gone

I hate myself, i hate love and i trust nobody.
Guess i'm changing once again . . .
Are we still friends?

Thoughts

270509, the day you appeared in my life.
Time flies and love blossoms eventually,
never did i realise i would fall in love once again.

We got to know one another better as time passed,
and i try to take small lil' steps into your life.
Thought there was a possibility of bringing our hands together,
but from there, things turned out the wrong way.

I'm sorry to cause all these misunderstandings and conflicts,
maybe my existence in your life ruined your happiness.
Even though i know it's not entirely because me,
i'll rather take the pain and everything,
in exchange for your beautiful smile and laughter.

I missed those hugs and everything . . .
i'm a man after all, i need love and care.
Will you take my hands and show me what love is all about?